7.22.2004
Families Are Weird...
I'm letting this all out here because if I don't let it out somewhere, someone will become the victim of my emotional explosion. Are there others PDDers out there who, through little fault of their own, are the black sheep, or scapegoat, for all their family's problems?Well, that's what I am. And I'm fucking tired of it. I can't even go into the details of why my sister and step-mom are mad at me because, frankly, I don't know. I get entirely no support from them and I'm just tied of feeling emotionally gutted by their lack of support and understanding, and the way that they talk about me behind my back and to others.. If they don't want to communicate with me, then fine, but then they blame me for not getting in touch with them!
So, I had a kid out-of-wedlock. Big fucking deal! So, getting my Masters Degree, a good job, and raising my son to be a respectful, thoughtful person, are higher priorities on my list than getting a husband or engaging myself in their catty little two-some. I'm tired of having to apologize for who I am and made to feel like shit because they can't deal with their own inadequacies!
